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First period, first day, 2nd floor, 3rd door down, I’m ready now, to get this year over with. No music, just a dirty blue hoodie and a messenger bag full of useless shit.

Destructive tendencies, they run deep through me.

Someone told me life’s what you make it. I guess I’m just making it anxious, and it’s too late for me to shake it cause now I’m right here. But I feel like this year will be different, like maybe somehow I’ll make a difference and maybe someone somewhere will listen. For now, I’m right here.

It’s always been up to me.

Fuck, I forgot my combination. 16-18-14? No. Fuck! I forgot my combination. 27-35.

Everything gets forgotten or I lose it or I’m late. It’s like something’s disconnected somewhere deep inside my little pink brain. Maybe it's just dark blue, maybe it's not there at all. Wait, I think my phone died. I think my zipper’s down. I think I’m gonna cry. I think a lot if you couldn’t tell, but don’t tell anyone.

The Counselor told me life is what you make it, I guess I’m just making it anxious, and it’s too late for me to break it cause I know I’m right here. But I feel like this year will be different, like maybe somehow I’ll make a difference, and maybe someone somewhere will listen. For now, I’m right here.

Running in circles leaves me out of breath. All I want is a break from the stress. This shit isn’t new to me, I’m used to the scenery and I’m all out of breath.

This year I don’t wanna play dead. The best way out is through, I wanna make it end. Fuck Temple. Fuck Drexel. Give me my paper so I can walk out those doors. I don’t care about a major.

Who cares about a major? I don’t give a fuck about a major! I made it this far, I just have one more year then…

Everything will be fine. The underdog always finds a way.

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from Dear Lemon House, You Ruined Me: Senior Year, released May 21, 2021

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